Friday, March 18, 2011

Spring is in the Air! @>---%---%---....but why do I feel so Cold?....

Despite the recent change in the weather, there are quite a few things that have brought me down....Don't get me wrong, I very much appreciate not having to wear a coat outside, but that isn't enough to compensate for how I feel.

I have been having some issues with friendships recently. Some of these are pretty obvious, but some of them I am hiding very well. I really love ALL these people and I want them to know that, but basically they either just don't seem to care, have hurt me beyond repair, made excuses, are fine living their lives without me, or took advantage of me. There are multiple people that I am referring to, and I really don't know why I am taking all this.
Oh wait.
Yes I do.
I don't seem to care about most things that bother me and tend to ignore them. Well this doesn't seem to be working anymore now does it? I didn't think so....

Basically, I would really like for all this to stop on its own, but I know for a fact that won't happen and most people do not seem to be eager to fix things, let alone even seem to realize this pain I am going through....
I just wish things wouldn't be like this, but they are, and I can't do anything about it....
except....Talk to these people about how they are making me feel, praying, and keeping the ones who I love close to me.
as one song in this situation inspires me, "what the hell"....
maybe that could fix things. maybe....

<3 amanda

2 comments:

  1. I may be reading more into this than I should... I feel like we may need to have a conversation my dear...

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  2. Also would like to add broken promises to the list as well.

    laSoeurFidele39-Yes maybe....
    Vikki-Thanks

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